Ponderances

Tuesday, 03 November 2009

  • I'm very glad to have lost 60 pounds, and now I see I must absolutely fight to keep it off, maybe even shave another 5-10 pounds if possible. Moving through the 30's now, I know I must keep a little eye on my health, so I thought I physical was in order, and it was.  My blood work shows I have a little bit too high blood pressure and blood sugars, hence, I am close to being pre-diabetic.  Pre-pre-diabetic I guess. Basically, were I not to manage myself better over the next 10-15 years, I could easily develop type 2 diabetes.  And well, since we have some diabetics in the family, well that would be just no fun to add me to the list.  So, I'm glad to already be eating well, and keeping active, its just terribly important I keep it up. This is at least good to know now. 

    On the plus side, I don't appear to have any STD's!  (TMI?)



Friday, 30 October 2009

  • Sometimes of late, it seems that time is speeding by, but my life is moving along painfully slow.  Another year passes, and I dont feel more accomplished, and developed.  I want more in life than I have, and opportunities dont seem to be knocking, so I am thinking, I must start looking for them, and even making some of them happen.  I kinda dont know what it all means for me, other than, I need to be in a whole different place in 5 years.  Where do I see myself exactly, not sure yet, but by this time next year, I hope to have a clearer idea.

Monday, 26 October 2009

  • I'd do a happy dance, but alas, I find myself at work this evening, and very much not into it.   I'm having Office Space Syndrome, of course it could be just a case of the Mondays?

Friday, 16 October 2009

  • I think I got the words and the breakthrough I needed to really be able to let go of the idea of dating Andrew.

    We were friends before dating, and well still are friends.  And chatting tonight, he told me he thinks of me as the gay little brother he never had ( he is 5 years older.)  And it hit me, that yes in some ways he is the older brother I never had, and a gay brother at that.  It hit me that I was not dumped, he does love me, just we did not know that the category best fit brotherhood, and to me it kinda transcends friends, I feel extra special, not dumped.  And it will make our shopping trip today to get new leather coats more fun, thinking of him as my new big brother, and not an ex. I think this is good.

    We do already look like brothers, and when people ask, we've usually responded, no, we are sisters.  But well, in some ways yes brothers too.

    Sorting out the world and life is tough aint it.

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