I've neglected to go shopping of late.  My cupboards at home are getting quite bare.  Till I ran out of bananas, apples, bread, eggs, and milk.  But in a way its good, lets me clear out and eat things I have bought, before buying more.

As a kid I can recall saying, we have nothing to eat, when of course there was plenty of food in the house, in fact a bounty of food to anyone in a starving nation.

But a can of kidney beans, or box of rice hardly sounds like a snack in the first world, not even a dinner really.

As the price of EVERYTHING goes up, and we all complain, I stop and ponder, yes things cost more, but I still find more food than I need, and I have no fear of this situation changing.

I'm about to eat an apple, cause thats what I have left.  The great bounty of my almost empty cupboards, that could feed a 3rd world family for the rest of the month, but I feel compelled to restock immediately.

I count my many blessings.

Oh my, you never know when death will show up.

The wife of one of my co-workers had become sick only a couple weeks ago, and everything just unraveled on her so quickly, testing, appointments, check into the hospital, slip into coma, then gone.

I just took the phone call from my co-worker, calling me to let me know of her passing.

What a hard call to take, but I think how much harder it was for him to make that call.

I know we all die, but man, when one is not old and long retired, its not fair.

Life, and certainly death, continue to be unfair.

Hmm, I'm really just blogging to pause on my work for while I let this moment sink in.

Its sad.

Gosh I'm glad I've got a vacation on the way.

I'm of course going to Hawaii again.  But you know I love it over there, tropical waters, guavas, pineapples, coffee, fresh catch of the day.  Ahhh, such a place to spend a lazy week, I'm so looking forward to going again.

Happy May Day!

When I was a little kid, more that 20 years ago now, the girl next door and I picked Lilies of the Valley from her yard to make little May Day bouquets to leave on the doors of our favorite neighbors, and of course on the doors of our own houses too.

I don't know where she lives now, but hmm its her birthday in a few days, and she will be 30.

You know sometimes when you add alcohol to people, strange things happen.

It brings out, truth, lies, meanness, love?, passion, spite, anger, sleep, headaches, and broken dishes.

I have too many things spinning in my head to make sense of, no I'm not drinking presently, just well after some weekend observances of others........ I stand lost with what and how to respond presently.

Our new coffee machine at work is broken, it is 1am, I want a cappuccino, and there is no one to fix the machine now.  WHAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!

Could it be that easy?

I was driving down the freeway yesterday, and I heard what I thought was way too much road noise.  Is my window open, no, is the door open?  Cant check now, but maybe.  At the store I checked, indeed the door was a little ajar, so I try to close it. it wont.  I cannot get the door to seal.  Well its holding, for now, whats up with that?  I need to have this checked out but its Sunday.  Gosh, I've got a full week, when do I have time to deal with this little annoyance, but then I don't need the door flying open while driving.  Hmm, I've a few hours this afternoon, I could swing by the dealership, of course I don't have an appointment, what if they make me wait a week or more, or what if they take my car today, but have to keep it overnight.  I have no idea, but let me see.

I drove up to the service bay, and walked into the office.  I told the guy my door wont latch right, I don't have an appointment, but am concerned for my safety driving any further.  He takes a look, grabs a little ratchet with a bit that only VW must have, but in a minute my door is fixed and closing perfect.  I was so relieved, and it did not even cost me anything. I was preparing myself for this to be some big drawn out ordeal, and in 5 min I was back on the road, and home with hours to spare before work.  So I got an unexpected bike ride in!  The day went from potentially sucky to wonderful.  So glad it went that way.

It occurred to me that, we live in the future. 

I had gotten up this morning, and wanted a cup of tea.  I have a box of Tazo Chai in the fridge, where its kept cold, along with the milk.  My only effort was to pour my beverage into a mug, set it in the microwave, and push the beverage button. In a minute or so, at warm cup of tea.

At work, we have a new coffee machine, put a cup under the spout, press one button to select your drink, and coffee, dark, with cream, latte, cappuccino, mocha, hot chocolate, the drink is created.

Its a simple everyday thing for us.  But for a moment I realized how much I take that convenience for granted.

I can push buttons and things get done.

Though most of human history food, water, daily life, was a lot more work than pushing buttons, which is mostly what I do, even now, typing, and when I work.

 Still waiting on that flying car though.

Things are good, generally speaking.

I had a rather pleasant day overall, back on night shifts, but I woke up early (for me) at 1pm. I wanted to sleep more, but well was more awake than it was worth to try and fall asleep again. I cleaned up the dishes in the kitchen, got the house is reasonable order.

It was such a nice spring day, I had to get outside, and the perk of having got up early, I had mountains of time before work.  Walked down the street by the nice houses, the leaves finally having dressed the trees green again.  It was nice to hear the rush of wind through the leaves. 

I like to walk by nice big houses, and ponder, who lives there, what is their life like?  Hmm, will I live a place like this some day?  How could that happen? Well maybe, its a day dream.

Anyhow, came back from my walk in a good mood.

I happened to have a phone counseling appointment.  Stress management issues.  Well, I think we have mostly noted my mood being influenced by the seasons, SAD.  So I made a goal to talk to my doctor, and see how to deal. When the winter comes I get into a funk, but today its SPRING! So I'm all manic or something!?

Work is just work, but the day ahead of that, was actually pleasant, and even perhaps memorable.  Or I want it to be, so I'm writing it down to will that into existence.

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