Life just seems kinda hard today. My mind is split in understandings of things with Andrew.  Logic vs emotion of course.  Logic tells me everything rationally and I understand where things stand.  But emotionally, I’m kinda feeling like a temper tantrum 3 year old, stomping my feet and crying how things are not going my way, knowing they wont, not matter how I kick and cry.  I’m thinking a person in his 30s can override irrational emotions, and though my feeling are real, I need to get over it, and move forward. I just need a plan of action, and maybe the great healer of all, time.

I don’t have the time for the mental break down I so deserve, but I guess my migraine on Friday night to Saturday morning will count.  I felt insane for about 14 hours, and then took another day just to get back on track. Clearly an actual break down will not do, so I’ll take the healthier option, and go on vacation.   I’m really looking forward to this trip, even if it changed its flavor from romantic holiday, to friends on a train.   I can still have a good time, make some memories, and take something nice home.   Work has not been overly busy, but my mind still is taxed at times, and I just need a break away from it, or I will go crazy.