July 15, 2008
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I lost 10lbs! I've been working out, biking, and walking, and maybe eating better too.
I intend to lose more, really 50lbs would be great, but hmm seems rather unlikely, but still I will work on being a healthier more fit me.
Though I must confess, its not ultimately about health, thats a nice side perk to weighing less.
Really it comes down to body image. I cant stand weighing as much, as a did! and still do, and am not comfortable in a body that size, its my own insecurity. I've longed to be fit and trim so long, and about 10 years ago, I did it! I got me weight down to the point where I got called skinny, I dropped 50lbs over a year from 1998-1999. That actually made me feel good. ME! SKINNY?
I enjoyed buying clothes, things fit better, and I felt more confident.
But, the years drift by, and the weight, pound by pound creeps back, and 10 years later, its that much more effort to lose it. BUT, if I dont work on it, it will only be that much harder in 10 more years, and so on.
So, I'm trying, and part of it, is to concede I will not be skinny, but at least fit.
And then the larger question is, would I be happier then? IDK, I'll have to update as conditions change.
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Having to go buy new clothes that fit better (smaller sizes-) is such a satisfying feeling!
-L
Well done - I have lost 20 over the last six months and it is a wonderful feeling
@suggestivetongue - I'm hoping to get to buy more new things this fall!
Once upon a time I was a small and petite woman standing 5'0" and weighing only 115 pounds. Now I'm still only 5'0" but weigh in at 250 pounds. It was a combination of being psychologically abused, severe depression, developing bulimia, and beliving my abuser that I was worthless. I got out of that relationship back in 1997. Since them my weight has fluctuated up and down. I've been through therapy for many years. I've got the bulimia under control, but still struggle with the binge eating. I've learned that I must learn to love myself no matter what size I am. Back when I only weighed 115 pounds I hated myself even more than I do now. Now I understand what I'm worth. I understand that I'm beautiful no matter what size I am. As I strive to get to a healthier weight I've learned to not be too hard on myself but rather love myself.
Learn to love yourself as you are.
RYC: Thank you.
@LadyValkyrie37 - Yeah I think I'm taking the Queen Latifah approach and just trying to be a size healthier. I may not be thin, but I'll at least be happy and healthy for being active.
you should come to argentina sometime! and i'm offering an open invitation to visit us too. we'll show you around cordoba at least and you can stay here with us.
ahh, the whole weight thing. i've never had a problem, although, i don't know what will happen in the future, lol. evan, though has always had to watch it, and is sensitive with his weight too. i think he's a sexy beast no matter what, but he has a more sensitive opinion about himself being overweight.
so, congrats on whatever makes you feel betetr about yourself.
-j
@jman17_jeremy - ohh Argentina is certainly on my list of places to see. I"ll let you know when travel plans arise!
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